So ever since I’ve discovered this site where I can watch television shows online, I’ve been watching all these shows which I probably would never watch. I saw the 2 part season finale of sex and the city today, and I think I could actually identify with Big and Carrie. (Although, nowadays for the most part I’m very Miranda – I know – how much more gay could I get!).

Anyway, I think I’ve discovered a pattern to my dating – at least based on the last 2 boys I’ve dated. I tell myself it’s not long term, eventually get attached – but keep an arm’s length to avoid getting hurt (it is short term after all), and soon enough the lack of pressure makes me comfortable, so I drop my walls, and before I know it – I actually have feelings for the guy.

Therefore, when I actually ‘break up’, and realize that I haven’t given enough justice or emotion to the person or the relationship, I get hurt, sentimental and regret the way I behaved. So the moral of this whole post, I guess, is that the next time I actually do get involved with someone, I should give it my 100. And I shouldn’t get involved with people whom I know don’t have long term potential.

This all seems so scientific and well thought out, and then suddenly someone random will come and chemistry will happen and ruin this whole hypothesis and I will be left heartbroken – again!

Man, who knew love was so much like research!

~ by becharagrad on May 26, 2007.